i got to go to bakirkoy for a period of observation. was bad, bakirkoy was the bottom of the bird cage. i had never seen anything like it. everybody in there was there because there were criminally insane, meaning they had done something hideous. there was an ex-judge. and he was talking like he was in court. i mean, the man was totally out of his mind. it really was maddening. everywhere around you is insanity. the bad part is, you are in bakirkoy. the good part is, it's probably easy to escape from there. the walls were old and pitted. you literally could climb over the top. so i'm waiting now for the right time. patrick was off raising money. he had to get false papers, and so he got himself involved with people who could do that. i got a telegram one day from my dad. patrick was found dead in his -- in his hotel room with a bayonet through his chest. he got himself involved with people from the underground getting false papers that somehow knew he had money. if i hadn't gotten in jail, if i hadn't done what i'd done, patrick would s