this is cho vuon chuoi — banana garden market. we're going to meet my aunt numberfive, yi nam.after my mother left vietnam in 1973. he stayed with her until 1981. laughter hello. how are you? oh, still very beautiful, i see. this is my cousin and my aunt. they're pretty busy! this is where my family still lives. it's where my parents met. these are the streets wherejohn spent the first 13 years of his life. it's incredible to know that he was walking, running, playing here when he was healthy. she asked how my partner was. khong sao! no problem! in 2006, i was living with my aunt for a time and my boyfriend visited. but at the time, i said that ben was just a friend. things were left a bit awkward. so, when i came back to my aunt's shop and one of the first questions she asked was, "how's your boyfriend?", i wasjust completely at ease. speaks vietnamese she's like a calculator, her brain... she's doing all of the math in her head. cackles for so many years, i've thought aboutjohn in the context of my mother, my father and me. but the fact is, he had a whole separate life that i

hanoi and ending over i,500km away in ho chi minh city... ..where my family still lives in banana garden market: 0h, he's so well hidden! it's the most incredible journey i've ever taken and i have to confront my family's difficult relationship with vietnam. my father and your grandfather would have been fighting against each other. i lost my grandfather, right? will putting my brother to rest help me make peace with the past? i'm in hanoi, vietnam's capital city. and, like other early risers, i've come to lake hoan kiem. it's my first morning back in vietnam — a country i last visited nearly 20 years ago — and some things seem to have changed. funky music plays we've got dancers busting that move! this is incredible! laughs. there's a real buzz and the city seems more confident. i think the last time i was here, ifelt a bit like a fraud. i didn't think i could claim a vietnamese identity because i was born abroad. i know i'm of this place and yet, i'm completely removed from it. i grew up in the deep south of the us in the 1980s, just years after the vietnam war had ended. there was a lot of a

hanoi, and ending over 1,500km away in ho chi minh city... ..where my family still lives in banana garden marketng against each other. yes. i lost my grandfather, right. will putting my brother to rest... ..help me make peace with the past? i'm in hanoi, vietnam's capital city. and, like other early risers, i've come to lake hoan kiem. it's my first morning back in vietnam, a country i last visited nearly 20 years ago — and some things seem to have changed. we've got dancers — busting that move! this is incredible! he laughs. there's a real buzz, and the city seems more confident. i think the last time i was here, i felt a bit like a fraud. i didn't think i could claim a vietnamese identity because i was born abroad. i know i'm of this place, and yet i'm completely removed from it. she speaks vietnamese. i grew up in the deep south of the us in the 1980s, just years after the vietnam war had ended. there was a lot of animosity and resentment towards vietnamese people at that time, and my father really contributed to that narrative, because he told me, "you're not mixed race, you're not biracial,