joining me is barry simpson. you had a rough time. i was a huge fan of yours.hitney, a great long-time friend of yours died. how did you feel when you heard whitney had died given what we know about her lifestyle? >> i was in california. this was my first weekend. i was there. i told myself, i'm going to enjoy this weekend and go to the parties. this will be like a coming out for me, put myself back in the music business again. i was going to go to clive's party. i went to music cares and i was going to go to the grammys. i was sitting in my hotel room. they said turn on cnn. i was just dumbfounded. i could not believe what i was seeing. some things knock you off your feet. this did that for me. it knocked me off my feet. >> were you shocked? the reason i ask is people close to whitney were aware she's had a lot of issues in her life. many people pointed it out. how shocking was it to people who knew her well? >> very. totally. i mean, we felt like she was in a pretty good place right now. i was looking forward to seeing her. i hadn't seen her since my husband