and it wasn't oprah's responsibility to sustain my vision, it wasn't barwal's responsibility to line up with my vision. it was my responsibility to stand for my vision, and i didn't. i didn't. so i ended up leaving someone who supported my vision, to be with somebody who didn't support my vision, and they didn't want reality, they wanted some figment of my imagination. they ended up with nothing. there came a point where i said i am a spiritual technician and a teacher. i'm not doing another makeover. and they said, oh, the negress is awake. where did she come from? tavis: we've got problems. >> we got a problem here. and they said, well, this isn't going to work, and i said, no, it isn't. because if we can't stand in this vision together, i'm out. tavis: as much as you put on the pages of this book in terms of lessons learned, are you still getting take aways? are you still learning from this? >> yes, still healing, still learning. it's not all over yet. the piece that i'm clear about is me. i'm clear about me, who i am, why i'm here, what i do, what i don't do, what works, what doe