. >> well, i actually went in the local belk's department store when i was a little girl with one of my public school teachers, and i went... i was thirsty, i went to drink in the white water fountain-- i didn't know what a white water fountain was-- and she was terribly afraid and upset and pulled me away. d i remember goingome with my little wounded psyche, but getting reinforced by my parents. but, you know, this woman died when she was about 90, not too long ago, and the thing that i remember most about her is that she somehow was so afraid to protect me as a child. it's amazing... but segregation and apartheid seeps in to every bit of your being, because you know that there are places you're not supposed to be, and they're... you know, you've got hand-me-down books in schools, and the white kids are going this way and the black kids are going this way to school, and we always had a place... i've just come from home this past... you kn, recently, and i started pointing out, "here's where we always had our fights every day. 'who's going to get the sidewalk?'" but these things are.