i mean everything, sleeping pills to benzozanax, you're numb, in this in-between state. >> like many veterans in treatment for ptsd he was treatment resistant. >> it was just a matter of time before i oded, looking back, i don't know how i haven't. >> at times even considered ending it all. the u.s. department of of veterans affairs estimates that 22 veterans commit suicide every day. >> it's disturbing how many veterans are committing suicide. >> dr. michael midhofer is a specialist specializing in ptsd. he's seen many veterans battling the war within. >> ptsd is a big part of that and they're not getting adequate treatment. doesn't mean the people at the va aren't trying but we need better treatments. urgently. >> dr. midhoffer is trying to create that treatment. he's researching an proper, how mdma can treat ptsd. before m.d mdma wass was discove fda put it in the same class as lsd. >> i had reason to believe these kind of drugs could be good treatments because there were case reports before mdma became illegal. talking about how it was historical for psychotherapy but there were