the accrington striker billy mckee says he has one of the bestjobs in the world but in a remarkably candidstruggled with suicidal thoughts and how he continues to balance life as a professional sportsman while suffering from severe anxiety and depression. i was on the bed rocking, literally wanting to kill myself. why would someone with the bestjob in the world want to kill themselves? depression is a serious thing and i think people really do struggle. i ama think people really do struggle. i am a bit bipolar as well and it all linked together. it is a new one for me. i am learning about it and hopefully i will learn more about my new ta blets hopefully i will learn more about my new tablets have been good. they have levelled me out and i think they take the edge off everything. fingers crossed, they keep working. if it wasn't for my wife and kid i probably wouldn't be here. a lot of people have some of the same things, and it is pathetic, really, but it is not me. that's not me. it is an illness and i think i am coming to grips with it. that is the thing i have come to grips with, it's n