one guy left blatch and now i ld over and then he finally went ld to sleep. so i came back upstairs and he standing there waiting up for me and that you will write and you are telling us for years the platform is for god so that's just a platform. mark: is that the event that started to turn your life around like. >> but then six months later my one son and said dad i cannot stay here anymore. mark: he must have known you were addicted. >> from 16 down they don't remember she said we are a very dysfunctional family i said i don't know what that means but don't say that again. so that december of 2008 something happened both doing cocaine in the 1980s we were both functioning at extra the eighties and nineties we switch to crack at about the same time and then and then i said what are you doing here? he said the law led me here i knew he was straight for three years. as long as you are here i said i have some questions for you. is a boring and he said no. meeting being clean. and to go into an hour of questions and they had been what i have been. and then one