posted by james golden, who you might know better as bo snerdley. >> rush made no secret about it.t it wasn't. i was born to host. and you were born to listen. >> sean: here now to explain more, longtime rush limbaugh producer, call screener, bo snerdley, james golden. and full disclosure, we've been friends for decades. sir, great to have you. >> that's right. thank you, sean. thank you so much. >> sean: you weren't able to talk about this publicly at the time. >> yeah, for the first few days i couldn't talk at all about it. and i still get choked up, and i still find myself getting weepy at odd times, just random times, something will trigger it, and you know, it's just something you have to learn to live with. >> sean: you lost your mom the same week, i mean, you got hit with the two shotguns, double-barreled shotguns. you talk about rush, you've been with him almost the whole 33 years, this incredible journey, this incredible ride. you also talk about the person that we know, fair to say that may be a little more shy in real life? >> rush was very often after the show, at least