with everything i've written he is like bob loomis. rob loomis was my editor for 33 years. we were an item and publishing because i would go to university press of bob went there. bob loomis and bailey held my hand figure to the aid when i would try to enchant myself back to the time to remember so well that at a 14-year-old lloyd in the bronx could read it and say i was there. to write it. so suppose i get stuck back there in the memory and the enchantment. the only person i knew who was bold enough and left me and asked to come and get me was my brother. inviting this book which was the most difficult of all the books. it was the most difficult. my brother died. and i didn't know if i dared running into a burning building. but i did and i have that memory i have told him in one of the books entitled elite old wind when great trees fall. the one thing -- i use it a lot and it's used in a number of going home ceremonies and funeral ceremonies. it says in effect, at least i had him. he was here. i am better for it and i can be because i had him so that's a blessing. >> dr. an