but i kept looking under bonita harris. >> you wouldn't have found me. >> yes. i didn't take into consideration you've been married a couple times. >> yes. 13 years you've been here. have you learned your lesson? >> i've learned very many lessons. >> 12 years, ricky. >> yeah. but it's like a new beginning for me. i'll never wear another pair of handcuffs or shackles ever. >> maybe it took this for you to do that. >> yes. >> like beauchamp, rudy gonzalez is also anticipating a release from prison. but with only two days left to serve on his eight-year sentence, he's in the midst of a meltdown. >> is this what i have to do to get someone to [ bleep ] listen to me? they won't [ bleep ] help me out! >> gonzalez was moved to a holding cell after cutting himself again after a dispute with staff over his rec time. >> i did one, two, three, all at the same time. it was so bad, i cut my vein, it started squirting. i'm trying to make it home, but at the same time -- >> he's cutting his wrist bad. he's been suicidal before. now you want to put him in a cage for no reason?