very clr she's still rawrom the pain of losing her ex-husband and best friend, monty brenson. he was glad he was going first, becse if i first, then he had to be here. >> what were you final words withmonne? >> i said i love you, and i felt him leve. and itas shocking. i didn't expect . >> you were holdg him? ou were right there holdln him? >> yeah. >> how did that affect you? how did i fect youour life, your sobriety? when is the last time you `ad a drink? >> let me just say my recovery is going amazing. >> after nearly a year, ki retus to "the real housewives" tonight to face off with kyle. but i ed our sit do to clear up some rumors. tre w even speculation that you were some poi homeles >>'m living in a $400,000 hotel in santa monica people arelikeke, she's homeless. aww. it's hardly homeless. >>nd while drunken cat fights, we allope -- i have told you today more than i will ever tell anybody agin, this is the last time want discussmy recovery. i wa to get itut there that i' in recovery 's mean a it's nobody's business. >> los t car is headed the right direction, she's just