caitlyn jilin agrees with that her brother also killed himself then only 6 months later her father died in sleep. suicide is a major problem across montana in livingston like many other small towns here there aren't enough psychologists kaitlin says waiting lists are months long in part due to health care cutbacks. she speaks openly about her despair one evening i was done i was exhausted and alone and broken so i took some pills with the goal of ending up with my father and brother. only a couple know this part about me like i have to peep hole. but i want people to know that we all have our bad days but i don't think god god is done with us yet. i can now breathe and tell myself that i'm ok. the american suicide prevention foundation coordinates private and state initiatives and events like this fundraising walk are springing up all over the us it's a 2 mile walk through largely deserted suburban streets can't really do any good yet it's a small town so when anything goes on all eyes are kind of yeah so i think that's super important but they didn't have a lot of advertisement for the