carl jung talks a lot about shadow, how we have a violent side of us that we don't like to talk about>> so that moment the north vietnamese soldiers, young men like yourself stood up opposite you, about to throw a grenade at you. do you think there's a correlation? >> i think there is. >> what did you do? >> well, the thing was, i can remember -- we were in an assault. and suddenly, we could see what we call chicoms, these potato masher hand grenades, flying through the air. and i got knocked down and blinded in one eye. and my radio man was hurt. and so it was serious. and we threw grenades back. and they threw some grenades back. and finally, i go like, "we're going to run out of grenades." so the lieutenant finally gets his brains working. and i said, "okay, you throw some grenades." there's three guys that were with me. "and i'm going to sneak around the side. and when these two guys pop up, i'll get 'em. when they pop up to throw the grenades back at us." i got around in the position. and i could see that one of them was already dead. and they were young. same as our guys, just,