. >> specialist carl mccall way survived two jurors to iraq before taking his own life. >> he shot himself. he was in the bathroom. >> in this house? >> yes. >> he knew he needed help and scheduled an up one with a mental health counselor. >> but that morning, they called and canceled. >> they did not have anybody to see him. >> maggie was also a soldier. she planned to stay in the army until she saw this e-mail written by her commander after carl's suicide. >> i know he has a lot of problems. >> that may sound callous, but it is the reality of life in the face of war. >> we saw the numbers go up in the past four years. we should have been more proactive. >> in this general has never seen anything like it. >> i have been doing this stuff for 33 years. i have never run into anything as difficult as this. >> carl mccloy was one of many suicides last year. this year, did numbers are even worse. 54 in the first three months. here is another alarming statistic. each day, on average, three soldiers calling national suicide hot line run by the department of health and human services. >> that mean