contacted by anybody, either by phone, e-mail, in writing, who says, you know what, i've seen carol lubahn> though as lewin and his team also let the juror hear, family members like carol's sister, gail, believed what mike told them, that carol had run off. >> has it been hard for you to accept the possibility that she may be dead? >> well, yes. >> is it maybe even more difficult by the fact that you cared deeply for the defendant? >> yes. >> reporter: and younger sister, terri, even though she had suspected mike for years -- >> do you still think of mike lubahn sr. as a part of your family? >> yes. >> reporter: but most anguished of all, mike and carol's son, mike jr. >> is there anything about the way you remember your mom that would make you think or made you feel that she would leave you and never come back and never say good-bye? >> no. >> reporter: he loved his dad. but also secretly doubted him. something he had never revealed until now. >> i was sweating so profusely during that whole trial, he never knew i had these feelings so on the stand publicly i had to basically say, yeah, i