librarian and casey boyd and casey, i think my self-reflection started back in 2020. and i write about this in the book, having met casey and listening to her and but when this hit, i was i was devastated it but my friends really came through for me and i. i spent a week you when you wake up because i had a death threat and the death threat and how the book opens up is with the the first the third i got and it's very explicit and talks about, you know, click, click we're going to come get you and all this business. i was devastated i'll tell you when i was targeted first started being targeted, i spent several days in bed. i cried so much that my eyes wildschut and i could not see my sinuses swelled shut. i couldn't breathe through the top, through my nose. i, i spent about a week maybe in a pity party wallowing, but casey was like, right, what are we going to do? how are we going to fight back? and i thought, you know, well, yeah, i've got to i can't just wallow this is not the person i was raised to be wallow pity. and so with the help of other librarians from my st