i didn't realise this until recently because i only tried it once and it didn't work for me, cbt, cognitiverapy, a cornerstone of which isjournaling, writing down how you feel at any given moment in time which is actually a really good thing to do that because it gives you perspective. you can write something a week prior which you look back on and say, i don't feel like that any more. you've made progress. or, i do feel like that, and i was right to feel like that, and it was a justified anxiety because it was actually something to worry about. what i'm trying to say is basically, from the age of 18 when i started writing music, i was doing something that was really beneficial to me as far as my mental health, because i was making sense of the mumble—jumble inside my head. i tell you what interests me, that you chose a form of music, a genre, which to many people, rap and hip—hop, to many people that was — in the 1980s and 1990s and through the 2000s — associated with images of young men bragging. young men putting on a show of bravado, of macho behaviour. macho attitudes. and your take on