. >> i cannot tell you how searing it was for me to read that because my mother had a cerebral aneurysmdid not know if she would make it through the night because it was scheduled the next day. that was a long time ago. there were going to go around and bypass the weakness. >> i started reading when i recovered, actually, before i recovered, when my wife and i were checking into the hospital, the first thing you do is meet with the anesthesiologist. it was a team of three of them and that got my attention. i said, why is the team, and they said we have to keep you alive. we stop your heart so we have to keep oxygen and blood to your brain and lungs. and i said, stop your heart? and they said, what do you think happens when you have open heart surgery? we can't keep your heart going. >> how did this inform your assessment? >> it brings home one thing intellectually. you and i know that target -- health care is in emotional issue. health care is scary. people care about their health more than policy, but when you're lying on the gurney you're not thinking about your charge master bill and