you know, chavis -- tavis, there are things that i can't close to my heart, to my quest for over 30 something years. -- there are things that i kept close to my heart, to my chest, for over 30 something years. there was not a day that went by, whether i was in the ring -- after a victory in the ring or marry my wonderful wife, my kids being born, i still had those moments that i relived that i knew that if i had not gotten that thing out, that poison, that toxin, that i would still be a guy who used alcohol and drugs to its fullest. not to say because i became an of pollock or i did drugs, it was everything. it was my life. i was not totally happy although from an exterior standpoint i would smile for the camera. i would smile when i met good people. i was hurting and i did this book for me. tavis: has it been therapeutic? you have been on the tour, people are asking about it. has it been therapeutic? >> it has been. i have met people tend to of the people, the fans, friends who came up to me and gave me a hug. some, every now and then, will say i was there, too. whether it was the cameraman,