. >> and for chester reed, it's that separation from family and his wife of 32 years that is most painfulwent through inside these walls and the pain that i caused my family, it will never happen again, not in my lifetime. it hurts me just to think of the hurt that i caused those ones i did that love me, especially my wife. she was there all the time. and then being together for 35 years as my soulmate, i don't even like insects to bite her. that's how personal i take it. >> twice a month for the past six years, chester's wife, ruby, has flown in from texas to visit. >> one of the things about your spouse being incarcerated is that you feel so much shame. you know. we had a pretty middle-class family. i mean my daughter thought it was the perfect family. i have two adult children also and suburban home. this stuff doesn't happen in your family. when it did happen, you don't want anybody to know about it. man, for me to sit here in front of the camera and talk about it, and think that somebody else will see it, especially somebody on my job, is more than i would have ever thought. i mean m