chi chi izundu, and you may find some of the details distressing. i've been petrified of telling the truth because i'll lose what i have. i'm 31 now and i've never lived through that kind of experience again, where somebody completely takes the reins of my life. and if i had experienced that again as a normal human being, i would have said that i would have been in an abusive relationship. # last night i told you i loved you #. lucy spraggan is talking about her time on the x factor. she became an overnight sensation when millions saw her audition in 2012. from that moment on, my life changed forever. # last night, i told you i need ya #. # that's the last time i drink tequila #. from the beginning, they kind of make you into a caricature of yourself. during that season of x factor, all the participants stayed in a luxury hotel. but lucy and fellow contestant violent clarke were told but lucy and fellow contestant rylan clarke were told by producers they had to leave. headlines branded them party animals. we were put into another hotel. we were rushed, put in there. we were not given security. she was one of the favourites, but after week three, she abruptly left the show. this is the first time lucy is explaining why. we were moved the same night that it was rylan's birthday party. i don't remember anything. so this story that i can tell you now has been pieced together through information from the police. i was not conscious when i arrived at the hotel. the hotel porter that had offered his help to get me up to bed, got a key card, let himself into my room and raped me while i was in my hotel room. in 2013, that hotel porter pled guilty to lucie's rape in 2013, that hotel porter pled guilty to lucy's rape and was sentenced to ten years. that happened on a thursday night. the biggest opportunity i've ever got, like, that's on saturday. the police are here. i've just had this examination and people are still asking me, "what do you want to do?" the day after it happened, they put me in another hotel room and i remember sort of having to peel myself away from jumping off the balcony. in a statement, itv said it has the deepest compassion for lucy. they say the production companies thames and syco were primarily responsible for the duty of care towards contributors, but added it is committed to having in place robust procedures to protect the mental health and welfare of all participants. both itv and fremantle say they are evolving their duty of care processes and fremantle added... and simon cowell, who owns syco, described what happened to lucy as horrific and heartbreaking and told her personally how sorry he was for everything she'd been through. when the reality tv show was made, there was a gross budget. i would like, let's say, 10% of this gross budget, and they put it into a mental health pension scheme, which is accessible for producers, contestants, judges, anybody, and they can access those resources. we need these shows because there's a thriving community of talented people who just don't have the funds and the opportunity to get there. i'm here to build, not destroy. i don't want to destroy anything. i want to build a better infrastructure. chirkin, the anglo—french actress and singer, whose style symbolised the swinging 60s, has died. she was 76. famous for her on and off relationship with the late singer—songwriter, serge gainsbourg, president macron tweeted that she "embodied freedom." she also lent her name to the herm s birkin designer handbag. here's david sillito. #je t'aime. # moi non plus. je t'aime had originally been written for bridget bardot, but the version that was released in 1969 was recorded by a singer who was, in her own words, a shy english girl, who had grown up in chelsea, and met the songwriter and actor serge gainsbourg on the set of the film slogan. the heavy breathing near the song's "climax" was too much for the bbc and the catholic church, but it helped turn jane birkin into a star, who epitomised a certain racy french bohemian cool. i think the vatican and the bbc banned itjust because of the heavy breathing, without realising the beauty of serge's text, which was, "i love you, nor do i". couldn