chris engelman is my editor. this is important. sometimes we invest so much in our opinions in our views we don't even realize when we are biased. i really wanted a local editor. i do not want a conservative editor. i didn't want someone -- i wanted to be challenge. i wanted somebody to make me defend what i believed him because i was rethinking everything in my life. iowa chapter publishing and in fact larry klayman who used to be with judicial watch made the introduction and chris engelman knew about it and when i told him the kind of book i wanted to write, reawakening virtues he said it can be a clinical book. you can't just beat up on democrats. he said i don't know if you can do that. i don't know if you can be fair. i must tell you i didn't realize what a challenge it was for me to really think about the opinions i had, the criticism i had and how -- i did not hold them is accountable. so the first eight months i was wrestling with myself to get into the integrity and virtue of writing and not its book where people could see