when he was 14 christan himself decided to have his undescended testes removed so he could feel more like a real girl that was 3 years after his father had told him he was intersexual. why didn't you tell me that earlier i always told you that i sensed something wasn't right with me but i was different why didn't you tell me earlier. because they told us to raise us a girl we didn't know how so we just tried our best smidgens with c n n vote on this we didn't want to confront you with those thoughts or make you sad but it was pretty hard on your brother he was embarrassed to explain to his friends the way things really were. his friends would have just lost the 10 it was hard on him too. that's how it was for me too yes it was hard i kept asking myself what my classmates would say that's why i chose to have my testicles cut out i didn't want to stand out i just wanted to be normal and fit in and i thought i'd fit in if i just stuck with the identity of the doctors had assigned to me back then. yes is that what it's your life. you have to think positively others have it much harder. i

we'll pick the big team i think we stay together another win on the road for coach christan strikes freiburg look of his teammates now move up to 3rd in the table. in sunday's late game how to barely encroached screws to a 4 mil away victory away at cologne the promoted club to have only lost at home so far this season and that trend continued against improving hatta side. yeah so wrapped up in cologne looking for back to back but his legal wins after a tricky start to the season when for the hosts would lift them out of the danger zone but it was the boys from berlin who struck 1st jeff i rode on firing this peach past t.-mo for the dutchman 2nd goal of the campaign and what a goal it was my fellow were reduced to 10 men in the 41st minute jorge met a receiving his 2nd yellow for this reckless challenge cancer took advantage in the 2nd period they got a piece of it slotting home from close range his 1st goal of the season arriving in the 58 minutes before he scored an almost identical goal 4 minutes later my dedrick boy after put the cherry on top later on with that split header. 4 nil the

get rid of a candidate who says this your appeal or any of this came again and libel to drag in christan to defeat and you get somebody who is in pretty good polls likely to be trumps a war in your centers or somebody that you know is a better candidate than biden. this cake russia's foreign minister has slammed the u.s. for not issuing visas to russian diplomats plotting to attend the u.n. general assembly calling it a shade will pick up that story in a few minutes. the rest of us soldier over his alleged plans to bomb a news networks exposed to why the plot he allegedly also plan to travel to ukraine to fight alongside the infamous far right as of fatah and with more of the story double quarter this morning. planning a terror attack preparing to murder and tea for members threatening to assassinate the president this isn't a movie plot it's the allegations that recently landed jarrett william smith in an f.b.i. cell and authorities say his plans were only confined to the us of a smith had spoken about his desire to travel to ukraine to fight with the ukraine based violent far right par

dreams of kong christan love global tribe. this is very very uneventful collide to us depressives is without resistance we are pos the danger has already happened. it was then just 10 years ago. now this is it. oh. no. no. thank you. hello again i'm dennis in the hall with the top stories here it out or 10 u.s. democratic party presidential hopefuls have faced off in a national debate in houston texas reforming the health care system gun laws and immigration law a major themes in this the debate it was the 1st time the frontrunners joe biden elizabeth warren and bernie sanders shared the same stage prop reynolds was there. there were relatively few moments of any high drama during this debate here in use then it seems unlikely that the status of the 3 front runners former vice president joe biden senator bernie sanders and senator elizabeth warren will be changed by what has happened here there were some sharp moments of exchanges and disagreements particularly over the issue of health care where there are real differences bet

also get rid of the candidate who says this or that hillary of this campaign and libel to drag in christan to defeat and you get somebody who is a party that polls likely to be trumps a war in your sanders or somebody that you know is a better candidate than biting. the rest of us soldier of residents plans to bomb a news network has exposed a white applause he allegedly also planned to travel to ukraine to fight alongside the infamous far right as of battalion with more on that story this morning double quartette. planning a terror attack preparing to murder and tea for members threatening to assassinate the president this isn't a movie plot it's the allegations that recently landed jarrett william smith in an f.b.i. cell and authorities say his plans were only confined to the us of a smith had spoken about his desire to travel to ukraine to fight with the ukraine based violent far right paramilitary group as of battalion why ukraine well it's a hotbed for the far right and white supremacy which have a big influence in the country's military the as all vitaly and for example its insignia

win for the americans europe weren't about to roll over and mounted a stunning comeback and a no christan bronte loss secured points and it all came down to sweden season pietersen who had this part to beat in the arena alex. secured the trophy for europe who won the tournament 14 and a half points to 13 and a half after the wind has been confirmed should be retiring from the gulf. was england's cricketers have won before elections test against australia with a day to spare having set the ozzies 399 runs a victory england didn't let them get close a straight his best batsman steve smith was out for just $23.00 despite mitchell marsh a century stuart broad and jack leach took 4 wickets each england winning by $135.00 runs to draw the 5 match series to 2 it's the 1st time that has happened in 47 years the former captain of the wales rugby team gareth thomas says he is living with h. i v thomas says he was forced to make the announcement of the british newspaper threatening to publish a story about his diagnosis thomas came out as gay in 2009. i'm livin with hiv. now you have that informatio

of today this is not conservative any more all right front christan hands are with the berlin the restaurant we appreciate you taking the time thought with us tonight thank you much. in the long history of britain there's that the piano more important i went for politicians to put country before tried and national interest the full self interest. numb to the state of our politics what is happening is shocking irresponsible and dangerous well that was former british prime minister tony blair speaking there blair is one of many past and present u.k. public issues mourning of the consequences of leaving the european union without a deal a new deal breaks it but that is exactly what will happen on october 31st unless parliament is able to change the course tomorrow or impedes or expected to introduce legislation that would ban a new deal breaks it and they only have this week to act the prime minister plans to suspend parliament for 5 weeks ending just before breaks it is scheduled to begin today prime minister johnson warned westminster that if lawmakers try to block his brakes it plans he will

raising young children right now are worried about what it means but i also think if you go back to a christan and joseph are talking about we can't give in to despair so we have to talk to our kids and our children in our youth about how these feelings are normal and how they can move forward in a way that's positive and support and solidarity and one thing that i always say to people when they ask how do we deal with this pain how do we deal with the suffering is it's. it's actually a privilege an honor to grieve something because we only grieve what we love and we only grieve what we lose that's important to us so if we are grieving it means it's a privilege and an honor that we have to respond to you and that's the same with teaching our children how to grieve it's teaching them how to not hide from it or become debilitated by it it's starting those positive productive conversations that are focused on that global solidarity and also the local and regional solidarity so we have the support networks for ourselves for youth for all generations to see and i and said that you have to be diplom

from the christan alberich to university and to ted to kill. together with 30 other scientists friedhelm talbot calculated how much nitrogen plants such as maize need to grow. the researchers found this to be 150 kilograms per hectare and professor talbot recommended this figure at the hearing. but just before the negotiation ended the committee decided to recommend 200 kilograms of nitrogen perhaps their significantly more fertiliser than the plants can actually absorb according to the. experts the surplus seeps into the groundwater in the form of nitrates. the scientists were asked for their expert opinion at the agriculture committee hearings but their findings were not adopted this. exclusive problem and it's extremely problematic for a scientist to see how legislation is being based on deals here find on levels of fact that are far removed from scientific knowledge one business have to know how is it. we're meeting professor talbot 2 years after the hearing he tells us the 27000 amendment regarding the nitrogen level has had enormous conse

christan thank you.is visiting research professor at the national university of singapore middle east institute he joins us via skype now from johor bahru in malaysia thanks very much for being with us so what sort of impact is this going to an attack like this going to have on saudi arabia's ability to to get oil out in to continue to get oil out in the market when they were really saying there's cut 50 percent of their output right now but how quickly will they be able to recover from this. well we've heard the 2 different opinions one is the official opinion from saudi arabia they think that they're going to cover up and be able to repair things quickly as they did in previous attacks however according to some other observers they think that this is a much larger a and more devastating perhaps than previous ones and it may take weeks so i think this is a while tend to kind of believe in the 2nd opinion which is that it's going to be taking longer previous problems that have and before technical proble