direct just all of the men that embrace me in our industry from paris barkley to john wells to christopher to john singleton and i can just name so many that, you know, didn't allow me to doubt myself. you know, they saw some things that i didn't even know existed, you know, like when i came over and said to john, i want to direct and he was like, of course you can. that is not the response i thought i would get. it's a ranty thi tyvanity thing. she wants to do this like so many actors before that want a thrash. he knew i really wanted to tell stories and paris barkley asked me a few questions and he gave me so much information and pushed me in the direction of it. they said if you do this, people will not it not vanity and you're willing to do the work and fall back behind the scenes and they will really believe that and he is right. >> i read about abc you got a big deal. >> yeah, yeah, abc is family. >> they have been good to you. [ laughter ] >> i don't want to sound -- i'm so proud of you. >> anybody says that they don't appreciate when someone genuinely expresses that, pays that forward, they are lyin