. >> crazy cindy splays a really big role at the convent. >> yes. >> she is a girl that in some ways, you seem to look up to? >> absolutely. >> because she is brave. >> yeah. she is very brave. i don't know if she understood how brave she was because she was cooky. but she had an audacity to have fun and to take chances and risks at a very high cost. >> you write about how she was institutionalized and went through electroshock therapy. >> that was a rumor. it was rumored that she did, she went through that. but she came back and she was not the same person. >> and we should say that all of the names were changed in the book. right? to protect identities. crazy cindy had the moniker, crazy but so did your mother. you called your mother crazy many times in the book. you described beatings from her as well, the verbal and the physical abuse. was she ever diagnosed as mentally ill. >> she was diagnosed as mentally ill and yet they still did not take her parental rights away. because they viewed her as being responsible by putting me in a home, even though i was in a loving home, my fathe