her father was clarence butch crouch, a vice president of one of the most infamous hell's angels chapter in the country. cleveland, ohio, in the violent he took a plea deal on a murder charge and turned state's evidence against his fellow bikers. >> butch is a federally protected witness -- >> reporter: from behind a screen for the u.s. senate judiciary committee, butch describes unbridled violence. >> we pulled and up stopped and machine gun opened up and i started shooting and i hit somebody. >> reporter: after nearly two years of testifying, before going to prison, farewell kisses. but he would never come home to jackie again. jackie and her family still in witness protection, left to pick up the pieces. >> i had no nobody to talk to. we were completely cut off from all of our family in cleveland. now i didn't have them. i had to new life i had to adjust to. >> what was the lowest point for you? >> really not knowing hot heck i am. i was suicidal quite a few times. >> reporter: after a difficult childhood, jackie thinks she never should have been put in protection to begin with. be pu