>> i wanted to go and meet with corey fleming who is another lawyer who was affected by the things i did. >> okay. and did you -- >> and a good friend. >> did you go meet with corey fleming in. >> no. >> what did you do instead? when i gave my pills to my brother, randy and danny, i think i gave them to randy, but i had taken -- i took a lot of pills because i knew i wasn't going to be taking anymore, so randy had my pills. i had to get some from him the night before but i only got a small amount. i could tell, you know, i wasn't taking anything near what i had been taking so i knew it was coming, and i called someone to bring me more pills, and before -- i believe before i met with chris wilson. >> did the person you called bring you more pills? >> you know, i don't know if he brought me more pills or not because by the time i met with him, after meeting with chris, and after, you know, the starting of the withdrawals, i changed my plan. >> and what was the change in plans? >> not to get pills from him anymore. and instead, i asked him to shoot me. >> did you ask him to shoot you as