he said kid cuddy had his hand on ben's shoulder. he said -- there's this mirror. that mirror he wasn't just looking at that reflection, he saw his whole life. he said when he looked in the mirror it was the best feeling and he was happy with everything that happened in his life and he was proud of himself. and ben thought he was going forward to heaven, but instead, he woke up on the floor of the high school. >> i had come home from college to visit that weekend. we sat out by the lake on our boat dock. it was very unusual to find him out in the dark in the middle of the night in the winter when it was so cold so i asked him why he was there. he said, i think god let me have that vision so i wouldn't be afraid of dying so i would know heaven was worth it. i asked him if he was happy he had woken up. he said, i guess. then he started crying really hard. and that was the hardest thing i've ever had to hear him say. but i had to remind him that if he came back, it was for a reason. >> the week before christmas your family held church at home. >> that was the morning