they're supposed to be leading the way, so she did. >> reporter: specialist daniel butler. [ ch] . [ rs and applause ] >> reporter: and to thank butler, the u.s. army gave him the soldier's medal. >> it's hard to be proud of it. it is. i am -- i'm very proud of what i did. but it's hard to be proud of it and not still have that thought in the back of my mind well, you know, i wish i didn't have to have this. i wish everybody was fine that day and life could have gone on. >> reporter: that last picture you're looking at there, that was daniel with his young son. ironically, daniel had come to ft. hood on his way out of the military on disability for posttraumatic stress. he earned high onnors for his actions that day, though. he is also paying a price. tomorrow morning at 6:15, the toll this took on him and his family. >>> it is hard to imagine the memories that are with him day-to-day. did he ever get a look at his son that day? >> he did get a chance to look him in the eye and he says that was one of the scariest things that still haunt him is looking into the eyes of evil really and

. >>> daniel butler a bona fide hero. >> when a gunman opened fire at for the fort hood.ran in to rescue people pinned down. now he is left to make sense of it all. >> he says there are no regrets, plenty of questions. >> i mean when you're a medic, you think about could i have done something faster. maybe if i ran up there faster, maybe if i didn't stop behind the electrical box. >> reporter: this army specialist knows there's little more he could have done november 5th when he braved a hail of bullets from major nidal malik hasan to pull wounded soldiers to safety. still, a year later, safe at home, moving on is hard. >> so many people were hurt. not just the people that died, but people that are all affected by this. every single one has a family. and it just hurts. >> reporter: ironically, butler came to fort hood on his way out of the military. after 15 months in iraq, he has post traumatic stress disorder. >> my truck got blown up a couple times, ieds, things a medic goes through. treating people. losing friends. treating casualties and seeing bad things. >> reporte