your husband, danimi, was a police officer in san leandro and then got a knock on the door.l us about that night? >> yeah, so dan was answering a routine call. some guys were out in front of an apartment complex. one of them, irving ramirez, had a searchable probation because he had been cycling in and out of the system for some time. and he had two guns and drugs on him. so instead of running or going back to jail, he decided to shoot my husband. >> and he shot him seven times. >> mm-hmm. >> you made a powerful statement to the jury. what did you say about irving ramirez? >> i said he was a monster and that he deserved to die. i wanted him to burn in hell. i was so angry. i was full of rage and vengeance and i didn't know what to do other than just, i just wanted him to suffer as much as i was suffering. >> and yet you became involved in working with prisoners. why? >> well, after about four and a half years of feeling that way, i became so exhausted, i couldn't do it anymore. it takes a lot of energy to hate like that. and i wore myself out. i just couldn't do it anymore.