this was david sims picture. no hair, no makeup. he just wanted me, that is kind of how i was-- that's a picture that shows exactly. >> rose: you. >> me, yeah. so that was pie first, you know, when you go, you have to have a book, you start modeling you have to have a book. this is my book. the first photograph, this is the actual book that you-- the first time someone actually put makeup on me, so i had mass cara you see, on the top. but you see my face, i'm kind of wondering. i don't even know what's ahead. >> rose: there is your dog, your famous vita. >> she was my partner in crime. and vita was-- . >> rose: with you. >> she is the one, when you feel like a lot of judgement and a lot of crazy emotions and things that happen in your life. and you feel alone in some ways. she is the one that kind of-- . >> rose: she has been there. >> she is my body guard. she was with me for 14 years and the book is dedicated to her. >> rose: is she no longer with us. >> no. >> rose: when did she die? >> sorry. two years ago. sorry. >> rose: so an