it says, dear vivian, i know you're going through, you know, a hard time. know you feel like you are never going to make it out of this, but you are. from that date, i did a complete 360. i started teaching english. and you know, i felt like i was actually doing something really productive with my life. it just made me appreciate, you know, our classrooms, our teachers, you know, the free education. that's what really made me say, okay, you know, when i go home, you know, i'm going to try to go back to school. the moment i stepped out was like the air was different. i was just looking around, and embracing the littlest things. you get all these mixed emotions at one moment. i got a chance to live to see tomorrow and try to make up for all the wrong that i did. when i got to new york, i think i was a lot different from the person i was, you know, when i got locked up at 18. i learned to value all the little things in my life and not take it for granted and be ungrateful and be selfish. stop here. when i saw my mother, i just gave here, like, the biggest, you