>> debra maynard who was then a deputy happened to be nearby and was one of the first uniforms to arrive this had gone out as a likely suicide. was that the mind-set of the officers as they continued to arrive? >> i think so. a lot of them were poor jeremy. we feel bad for you that she did this. >> another arriving investigator found a faint heartbeat and started cpr. frantically, trying to save michelle. the petite 24-year-old lay sprawled on the bedroom floor bent back at the knees as though she had been kneeling. the gunshot wound was in her mouth. another round was fired into the carpet by her right side. next to her left hand, her boyfriend's sheriff's-issued .45 semiautomatic lay tilted up on the holster a few inches away. the flashlight attachment under the barrel turned on. >> i remember begging to stay in the bedroom with them. that was my girlfriend. the person i loved. laying on the bedroom floor. >> i asked jeremy to come with me. at which point his behavior became aggressive and he started pacing back and forth. the only way i can describe it as he was growling. like an anim