ever since then i was experiencing derealization.on is the sense of being out of one's body all the time. and what i later come to realize is actually hyper anlization of reality and real time, what that means is basically, you're just overanalyzing every moment that you perceive in real time which sounds wild. but it exists. i didn't know what it was. i thought i had like a disease or there was something going on with my brain or dying. i didn't realize it was anxiety. and so this term like driving -- you're driving me crazy is a real thing. like i almost drove myself to the brink of insanity. and i didn't even know why. why am i doing it? why am i, you know, doing meet and greets when i'm meeting 100 people every day three hours before a show and then i'm doing a soundtrack -- or a sound check and performing for two hours a night and thent off day isn't really an off dashgs it's traveling on a bus for 18 hours and over and over and over. last year nine straight months on the road away from my wife, dogs, home. i say all this to say