relationship and you decide to go back, you are going to hear the words, "i'm sorry, i've changed, i'll deverhat heathery. >> i mean she loved me. i know she did. when she -- when she was -- after she got off me, i had stabbed her right here, she lay down. i held her in my arms and before she died, she said "i love you" and those were her last wordsment >> during his sentencing one of the things that he did say was heather's last words were that i love you, josh. i will never believe that. i have nightmares that heather's last moments was calling out for me to help her because she had done that so many times before. i don't see where this would have been any different. >> one fact that is indisputable is that bean attempted to get away with murdering heather by dismembering her body with a chain saw and placing the parts in trash dumpsters throughout indianapolis. heather's body was never recovered. >> i go by a dumpster, and i wonder if that's one of my daughter's last resting places. i see black trash bags, and it makes me sick. i hear a chain saw, and i have to get away. so much is differe