dick mallory took his own life in 2011. >> was a beautiful fall day. and i came home, and found a note on the door. >> do you mind sharing what the note said? >> to jeannie and my family, the time has come. i've done everything that i wanted to do. and i don't -- i didn't regret my life. he knew it was going to be a shock to me. but i feel that this is what people who make the decision go through. they weigh the benefits. and the burdens. he certainly didn't want to put us through watching him become helpless. and he didn't want to be nursed, you know, he was very proud. a proud man. my hugest regret is that i couldn't be with him. and that's because it was not legal. >> with the new law in vermont, if been underhill chooses physician-assisted suicide he can be surrounded by family at the end. >> i'd much rather go out on the terms that i want to go out, feeling good, being happy, being comfortable, being with the people i love. than lying in bed suffering. and i think it's almost an enlightened position. of not having to suffer at the end. >> the avid