so why was dillinger rachel earlier, so this is an author's, rather than policy. i pointed this bookstore through much of my youth and middle years so i will tell the story a little bit, apply meant to be a writer and it was my ambition to be john mcphee basically. i wanted to be a very vivid literary nonfiction writer. and i started in the 80's by going down to the out of town news and by being a bunch of writers magazines and looking at how you become a free-lance writer. writers magazines are like bicycle magazines or cooking magazines to read the tell you the same thing over and over and over again and then they have to figure not a way to make you think it's different. and what they say in the writers magazines is right to the editor a letter and if he says yes go ahead and write an article. everything else is secondary. so i started doing that and while i was doing that, i got a job at the kennedy school writing teaching material for the faculty there and i did that until, did that the next 15 years in various ways, and i lived on douglas street and the case