getting calls, as we were waiting to see if this event was going to unfold, i got a call from don macinnesas running the events coverage and he said "look, would you be able to get yourself to balmoral?" so as soon as we heard that the queen had in fact died, newsnight was obviously cancelled, so i got on the train and then rushed home, threw all the black clothes i could find in the car — because i didn't know how long i was going to be away — and put my foot down in the car and sped to balmoral. and it was extraordinary because i was going through the most rugged countryside to get there, i was thinking — this is extraordinary. what a moment in history, i'm going through the long road at the spittal of glenshee thinking �*this is part of history'. not only for scotland and the uk but for the world. my colleague kirsty wark is at the queen's estate at balmoral. yes, i think what you see behind me is almost in marked contrast to what was happening at buckingham palace because hundreds of people have been coming forwards and backwards all day, laying flowers, making tributes, but there is a