example you know what i'm doing something really simple to lessen a very deal i mean summing up dostoyevsky in one sentence it's not really easy but . when you're a foreigner you look at russians like this you think these people they have many temptations of many kinds of money fame i don't know beautiful girls or you know killing yourself with drugs and alcohol. but then the turn to something more beauty for we can be nature it can be family or you can be god or routine i don't know but anyway. it's good when you ease a tree it's a tree it's not you're not the same at the end of the book as you were when you started the book. now that your editor would you choose you don't publish myself lately read yourself for the 1st time. i have to think about these take it because i'm always very very. mean to myself so maybe i would say heart disease who are you going to see are you going to bustard no i mean i don't really love what they do more with would love to correct my old books you know and when i reread myself i am ashamed so i don't know if i would publish me but it's important to be able t