till this moment no one knew that one child your old doty and had escaped horribly wounded she ran away and has never returned till now. ironically the only structure in the village has been rebuilt as an example of what was destroyed is the one the long tell your family. how can you and shield cope with having inflicted that kind of pain. he has to defenses the first is dark it's the moment it's the opportunity it's the knowing that. probably nothing's going to happen to me the second is familiar i was a soldier following orders. and i believe that's how i dealt with that. everyone you can find was unarmed. that are that's true that you have any hesitation about killing unarmed i people i definitely have has deja gil i want to just say. that i should. say that i shot. until i realized what was wrong and when you say you shot you mean you shot villagers i'm not going to say whether i said villagers are in a small statement given during the investigation of the massacre another soldier recall seeing ken firing at villagers while saying i don't want to shoot them i don't want to shoot the