but she does say despite giving dowda a black eye, dowda fought back. >> she's quick on her feet.ing to knee me. trying to gouge my eyeball. i know she had a good batch of my hair in her hand. >> i know i got hilts in. when i fight i black out. i have bad ptsd i think it's what it's called. i have blackout when i fight and i don't mean to. whenever someone hits me it triggers in my head, you're being abused, it's a life or death situation, you have to react. >> where does the ptsd come from? >> i've been abused a lot throughout my life. so it just -- a lot of triggers. >> dowda says she has had a troubled childhood that includes time in group homes, sexual abuse, being a victim of human trafficking. she says at age 13, she began to cope by cutting herself. >> it was like the adrenaline rush that it gave me was better than a high. it was better than smoking a blunt or popping a pill or something. it was better. and then one day i just couldn't take it. i cut myself a little bit too deep. that instantly scared me because everything went black and i don't really remember if i hit a m

dowda said cavallucci wanted more from the relationship.rtion that cavallucci neither confirms or denies. despite giving dowd a black eye dowda fought back. >> she tried to gouge my eye ball. i mean, i know she had a good batch of my hair in her hand. i know, i got hit, too. but when i fight i black out. i have bad ptsd -- it's bad. i black out when i fight and i don't mean to. whenever someone hits me it triggers you're being abused. it's a life or death situation. >> where does it come from? >> i've been abused a lot throughout my life. >> dowda said she had a troubled childhood that includes time in group homes, sexual abuse, and being a victim of human trafficking. she says at age 13 she began to cope by cutting herself. >> it was like the adrenaline rush that it gave me was better than a high. it was better than smoking a blunt or popping a pill or something. it was better. then one day i just couldn't take it and i cut myself a little bit do deep and it scared me because everything went black and i don't remember if i hit a main arter