.# dr huckabee is the medical director here and is an expert on pain medication and what it does.en foot. # the needle tears a hole # the old familiar sting...#. i was given oxycodone. it was like pulling a trigger. i could not turn it loose. it tickled my brain in such profound ways it totally blindsided me to the point i eventually was injecting my own fentanyl in the operating room, and was fortunate to have partners who intervened upon me. you were injecting yourself? yes. powerless, powerless over it. i promised myself all the time, "we will not do this again. "that we are not going to do this again today," and by the end of the day, you know, ijust could not control it. i'm addicted to heroin. i about died six times. all i could think about is, when am i going to get some more? to feel better. but never feeling better. i am tired of this. i remember the first time i od'd, and my boyfriend was actually filming me. he brought me back, and right after that he went and did a shot, and just kind of like, "wow, ijust almost died." heroin's addictive like no other drug, and for man