easley feels he's ready for it. >> what made you so mad and angry?at i let my son down because i ain't never -- my father was there, but he was doing the same thing i'm doing, in and out. and i feel like if i can be there with my son more and more, he won't turn to the streets like i did. like i was looking for a role model -- >> so you're hoping your son doesn't imitate -- if he does imitate you, that he imitates the good parts. >> yeah. pretty much. >> you don't want your son on the streets. >> no, sir. >> is that why you were hurting yourself? >> yeah. >> make more sense of it to me. >> basically, most of the meals you sit here in jail, period, you had a father that wasn't there or had a father that was in and out of their life where they didn't have no role model, a male in their life. there's only so much a woman can teach them, a male, a son basically. and i just feel like i let him down. >> and you didn't want your son to be disappointed in you like you're disappointed in your father. >> i just feel like if he was there in the past, i probably