and especially in a place like eatonville, and this is for all of us. we would like to connect directly with life. we have to do it in freedom. you cannot connect directly with life with somebody telling you when to wash the dishes. you cannot do it. in fact i remember someone who -- this is an aside, but i was so in love with someone once, and we came back to our place, and i was busy because -- well, i was busy. and this person, in this case man -- he was annoyed, and he took that opportunity to remind me that actually our bathroom really could use a big cleaning. and i said, oh. you know. i'll help you find the place in another place, not here, because i could see that his programming was that he would be able to direct and that i was expected to follow direction. i cannot follow direction. except my own direction. my earth-given divine direction. i am the last person to be told when the bathroom needs to be cleaned and neither is janey. this is part of what is happening. during this book. she is learning that she is not here to be somebody's decorat

applause] >> and by the way, i don't know if you realize this but sanford florida is 10 miles from eatonville, and these are the same people. these are stories of people that are down there. so, you know, that family, martens, they offer people, and our people. i've met. >> so here she is. they finally, the black people in the courtroom run are met at her and they want to do terrible things. there some white women who are sympathetic, and then janie just gets up and they call and put her in the chair and she says, they all leaned over to listen while she talked at first been shed remember was that she was not at home. she was in the courthouse fighting something, and it wasn't death. it was worse than that. it was lying thoughts. it was lying thoughts. she had to go way back to let them know how she and tecate had been with one another so they could see she could never shoot tecate out of malice. she tried to make them see how terrible it was that things were fixed so that tecate and come back to himself until he got rid of that mad dog that was within them, and he couldn't get rid of the mad