edouard louis, welcome to hardtalk. thank you very much.born and raised in a working class town in the north of france. you escaped as a teenager to make a new life but it seems to me ever since then, you've been, in a sense, faced with an impulse to go back, to make sense of your own past. is that right? yeah, because, you know, i have the feeling that while i was living my childhood, i wasn't understanding it. i was living kind of next to my childhood as a child. and it's only when i took a distance with my past that i was suddenly able to understand it. for example, as a child, as i describe in my last book who killed my father, i hated my father because i thought that he was a bad person because of his homophobia, because of his violent urges, because of his violent behaviours. and it's only when i left the place that i was able to understand that his behaviour, what it was saying to me is, his behaviour towards gay people, toward women and everything was conditioned by something bigger than him — by socialforce, by his place in the wor