but also, you know, i have ehlers—danlos syndrome which is a kind of invisible disability.thing i've had my whole life, i was born with it and that affects my body in every single way. and it means that i am incredibly accident—prone sometimes, and i bleed for longer than normal people, i bruise much more than other people, it affects all of my organs, i thin it's part of what affects my hearing, and so i think when you're a sick child who misses a lot of school and you lose touch with your peers, i think that's also difficult. i think generallyjust being deaf can create a literal feeling of a wall between you and other people, and again this was the 90s so it was the ablest time, much more ablest than we are now. so there were just many factors that just stole my confidence from me. and then at the age of 17, fleeing a bumblebee, a bee, you were struck by a car. yeah, the bumblebee wasn't even chasing me. ijust saw it... and what happened? i got afraid and i ran into a car, and then that car hit me into another car. nothing has ever been more my fault in the world than me