. >> so, my other book, the "lethal decisions," was written almost like elie wiesel wrote the night heccepted his nobel prize, "i had to write it. i had to tell the story." and so that book had to tell the story of we've been successful, yes, but we can't say we've been successful in ending the epidemic worldwide. and it goes into why. as i dealt with the violence against women in these poor countries, i realized i was really dealing with two epidemics -- an epidemic of hiv, certainly, but an epidemic of violence. and they weren't separate. they were related. so going through my mind was... there are lots of documentaries about violence against women and documentaries that have been done by all the major networks and people talking about violence against women, but it didn't change things. and so i felt maybe if i could express it in an artistic way that still maintained the dignity of women but still talked about the epidemic, i would do that. so for 10 years, i wandered into museums and saw paintings 100 years old, and i looked around the biology and i saw representations of the aids