there were amazing discoveries in this, i found out, accounts of elizabeth peabody and her childhood,w she hated her curls and wanted to cut them off with her mother's sewing scissors, she fought with her mother about what she was supposed to read, she was a religious rebel at age 13, read the bible 30 times, i thought i would have to rewrite the childhood chapter, journals from when she stayed with the emersons, i mentioned those yesterday in my talk. it was a wonderful find. if i hadn't taken forever and even had this year when i gave up the book for a little while i would never have gone and looked at this and no one ever would have. >> it is probably better to keep researching, do too much research and too little research. we don't have that much more time. >> a question for jill. would you describe to us with the conflict between your historians sensibility and your creative sensibility, the two examples you describe. i wonder if you could tell us the advantages and disadvantages of that struggle? >> that is too hard, a wrap up moment. i found it immensely instructive and fruitfu