. >> elyn saks was just 16. thoughts became increasingly intrusive worsened. >> i had the delusion that i killed hundreds of thousands with my thoughts. i had hall use nations of a man with a knife above my head. it's like a waking nightmare with the odd, bizarre scary things, but with a nightmare you sit in bed. >> for years elyn saks kept the severity of her illness from her family. she graduated from college. her symptoms became too severe to hide. >> i was having a breakdown. i said to my classmates -- are you copies infiltrated like mine are. my professor took me to the e.r. i was saying crazy things. >> when she threatened an tapedant she learnt the -- attendant she learnt the hard way that she would be treated. >> they lifted me high and slammed me on a bed and tide my wrists and ankles. i screamed at the top of my luption. it never -- lungs. it never occurred to me that i would be treated like that. >> worst was the diagnosis of schizophrenia. i couldn't believe it was true. >> when a yale psychiatrist t